Relapse >.>

Wow... today was...eventful... So for 8th period I tutor (By tutor I mean that he does his homework, I check it and if he doesn't understand something then he'll ask me and I'll explain it to him) a 3rd grader named Bradley. At the beginning of school he was nice but tended to take out his anger on me when he was well angry or frustrated. Such at slapping, punching, pinching, and, stabbing (with his pencil) me. I reprimanded him and told him not to but I never told his teacher because I know how it feels to not understand something you were learning in school and to become frustrated or confused, so I feel that I could relate to his problems. Then about the start of second quarter he started acting calmer, more collected, and was able to focus better. I was really happy because he stopped trying to hurt me and he was getting his work done faster. Everything was going well until today when it seems like he relapsed back to how he used to be. I asked him if he took his medicine that morning and he said that he did so I was naturally confused. If he took his medicine then why is he acting this way. By acting this way I mean stubborn to start working and taking an excruciatingly long time on it. Then all of a sudden about half-way during the tutoring session he jumped me, literally. He jumped on top of me and grabbed a fistful of my hair and yanked. Then after a while I finally got him off and he stabbed me with a pencil. Normally I can't hold my anger down when someone hits me or something but for Bradley I was willing. But this time around I snapped. I stood up from my beanbag that I was in and poked him in the forehead. I was like, "The next time you physically harass me I'm telling the principal and your teacher, got it!" His eyes widened and he packed up his backpack and said, "I'm leaving." Then we walked towards the door of the library and he started joking about it! I'm not even going to start on how much that pissed me off. So I did what I normally do, ignore him and walk away.

I'm kinda scared about tomorrow though 'cause I mean how am I supposed to act about and around him. If you have any advice for me I'd appreciate a comment with your advice in it, thanks for reading ^_^
-Monsta

Been a while.. >.>

Wow, I haven't posted since Feb. Silly me. I just re-read what I posted last and I'm like "Wow, I was such a jerk back then!" XD I think I've changed a bit now, I'm nicer than before and I love all my friends. I feel that we're closer than ever and I hope it stays this way for a while. Anyways school's going fine and I'm now a Freshman in high school ^_^ I still write fanfics on fanfiction.com and I still love to draw, read and write. I think that anime and manga is helping me become more confident and able to express myself along with my feelings better, I know that may sound kinda stupid but hey it's how I feel and I'm allowed to vent on my blog XP.

Anyways something random I wanted to post was that last night one of the glow in the dark stars I had on my ceiling fell down onto the keyboard of my laptop while I was typing and I ended up screaming my head off and almost giving myself a heart-attack >///< I know stupid right but like the simplist stuff startles the crap outta me!! Ahhhhh, ranting feels so good! Well I guess I better get going now before my mom yells at me to get off again. See ya next post!

Monday

Wow it's Monday already X.X School was long but i had tutoring for math so thats done. Then later tonight i have a basketball game. My dad might come to lunch tomorrow but i'm not worried. I kinda feel myself drifting away from my besties (best friends) and drifting out more to other people that i dont know very well. I found out today that one of my friends, Morgan, told my other friends something that i didnt want her to tell. That kinda pissed me off. Also you know how theres always a bunch of cliques and stuff. Well for us theres the Corn Flakes (cool kids) then theres the Cool nerds (Nerds that are kinda cool) then we have the Secret Circle ( a bunch of random people together.. kinda like the cool nerds.) Then we have The Nerds (Just nerds) Then theres the Fakers (Guys who think there cool but there not) and lastly we have me and my besties we have our own kinda clique (its me, Jess, Mk, Morgan, and Leah.) Oh i forgot about the Drifters (people who drift from one clique to the next) So anyways Morgan is like.. i dunno a rich snotty kid (an only child) and she's been known to spread rumors (I've been her target before so i know it hurts) and then theres Jess (my besties) ((Shes middle-class and has divored parents and a older sister.)) Me and Jess just kinda clicked when we met ^_^ ( but lately we've been drifting apart) Next up is Mk (or McKinley) (( she is adopted with a older bro and younger bro shes also middle-class and we have a lot in common)) Lastly is Leah (shes rich with two older sisters and kinda weird.. ) Oh! I forgot about me.. Well I'm middle class i play basketball and love animals, uhhh i have an older brother and have never had a boyfriend. Thats all for the personal info for now XP Guess that's all i have to say well see ya'll either later tonight or tomorrow.

First Post

Hi! This is my first post i guess. I had idea's of making my own blog earlier but i guess either i was too chicken to do it or i just never got to it. Hate to say it but this was inspired by a Manga, Koko Ni Iru Yo!. I guess you can tell now that I like manga and anime (^_^). Anyways i usually do this by hand but dont cha think typing is more efficient. Now down to the heart to heart stuff. I guess sometimes i wish i had someone elses life. Or like was a character from and anime or manga or even that my life was it's own anime (or manga). My friends mostly know that i like to watch anime and read manga and even draw them but i only have 1 friend that likes them (it) too. Whenever i feel like i cant keep up this outer façade i vent and write fan-fic stories and draw. When both of those fail i power up the computer and blast music XD. Now the newest thing i do is blogging! I hope that i can post at least once every day. I'm pretty sure that i dont even know who my real self is.... thats kinda sad no? Right now i'm listening to Fly on the Wall. Hope you respond with advice or help me along this journey thanks!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uayQSM6cR4Q&feature=channel