Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Relapse >.>

Wow... today was...eventful... So for 8th period I tutor (By tutor I mean that he does his homework, I check it and if he doesn't understand something then he'll ask me and I'll explain it to him) a 3rd grader named Bradley. At the beginning of school he was nice but tended to take out his anger on me when he was well angry or frustrated. Such at slapping, punching, pinching, and, stabbing (with his pencil) me. I reprimanded him and told him not to but I never told his teacher because I know how it feels to not understand something you were learning in school and to become frustrated or confused, so I feel that I could relate to his problems. Then about the start of second quarter he started acting calmer, more collected, and was able to focus better. I was really happy because he stopped trying to hurt me and he was getting his work done faster. Everything was going well until today when it seems like he relapsed back to how he used to be. I asked him if he took his medicine that morning and he said that he did so I was naturally confused. If he took his medicine then why is he acting this way. By acting this way I mean stubborn to start working and taking an excruciatingly long time on it. Then all of a sudden about half-way during the tutoring session he jumped me, literally. He jumped on top of me and grabbed a fistful of my hair and yanked. Then after a while I finally got him off and he stabbed me with a pencil. Normally I can't hold my anger down when someone hits me or something but for Bradley I was willing. But this time around I snapped. I stood up from my beanbag that I was in and poked him in the forehead. I was like, "The next time you physically harass me I'm telling the principal and your teacher, got it!" His eyes widened and he packed up his backpack and said, "I'm leaving." Then we walked towards the door of the library and he started joking about it! I'm not even going to start on how much that pissed me off. So I did what I normally do, ignore him and walk away.

I'm kinda scared about tomorrow though 'cause I mean how am I supposed to act about and around him. If you have any advice for me I'd appreciate a comment with your advice in it, thanks for reading ^_^
-Monsta

Monday, October 19, 2009

Been a while.. >.>

Wow, I haven't posted since Feb. Silly me. I just re-read what I posted last and I'm like "Wow, I was such a jerk back then!" XD I think I've changed a bit now, I'm nicer than before and I love all my friends. I feel that we're closer than ever and I hope it stays this way for a while. Anyways school's going fine and I'm now a Freshman in high school ^_^ I still write fanfics on fanfiction.com and I still love to draw, read and write. I think that anime and manga is helping me become more confident and able to express myself along with my feelings better, I know that may sound kinda stupid but hey it's how I feel and I'm allowed to vent on my blog XP.

Anyways something random I wanted to post was that last night one of the glow in the dark stars I had on my ceiling fell down onto the keyboard of my laptop while I was typing and I ended up screaming my head off and almost giving myself a heart-attack >///< I know stupid right but like the simplist stuff startles the crap outta me!! Ahhhhh, ranting feels so good! Well I guess I better get going now before my mom yells at me to get off again. See ya next post!