Wow

Woooow it's been a looooooooooong time since I posted something up here :P I finally got off meh lazy butt and here I am!! Well anyways Happy (very late) New Year!! XD it's 2010 yet I still find myself writing 2009 *smacks self* silly girl. Lol oh well. Uhhmm I really dunno what to write on here now... the problem I had that I talked about in my previous post is all resolved and yeaaah.... I got a drawing tablet for Christmas and I'm putting it to good use XP Ahh I dunno why but I just remembered I have to change meh calender cause it's March now!! My calender is freaking awesome cause it's a Naruto calender :D Naruto is a manga and an anime for those of you who don't know. Manga is like Japanese comics that you read opposite of how we read and anime is the animated/cartoon version of manga. Cool stuff. I'm a narutard XD that's someone who's obsessed with Naruto ^_^ I have a calender as previously mentioned, a plushie of Kakashi, a hidden leaf village headband (Itachi's with the slash through it) a wall scroll (it's like a huge poster only bigger and more scroll-ish), I have a wig (Sakura's), the manga of one of the movies (Land of Snow), and a dark Sakura cosplay that I came up by myself (I made it and put it together myself too :P), that's all but I plan on cosplaying (dressing up as) Naruto, he's the main character (duuuuh). I wanna cosplay him in his genin outfit the one that's primarily orange XD. When I buy the costume (totally not making this, I'm like terrified of sewing machines, I always think I'm gonna sew my finger or something) I'll probably take some pictures and maybe I'll post 'em up :D Going completely off topic here Pandora.com is a great place to listen to music that you like :) I'm on there right now listening to Contact by Falling Up. Good stuff. Wow... I just noticed how many parenthesis's I have up there XD oh well. This is actually a pretty big post compared to most of mine :P. Does anyone (if anyone reads this...) have a Fanfiction acc.? or maybe youtube, or deviantart? Any one?? Oh well just leave a comment but I seriously doubt anyone reads this *shrugs* meh whatever. Okay well that's all for today... and probably the next few months unless something exciting pops up... yeah not likely.

P.S. Idk what's up with the Kanji up there ^ in the title..
P.P.S Nevermind it went away :P

::Request:: Please pray for my friend Jess, she has a cyst on her brain and the doctors don't know if they can remove it :( she's missed so much school last semester that she is taking online classes now so my friends and I all miss her dearly.

Signing out
-Monsta

Relapse >.>

Wow... today was...eventful... So for 8th period I tutor (By tutor I mean that he does his homework, I check it and if he doesn't understand something then he'll ask me and I'll explain it to him) a 3rd grader named Bradley. At the beginning of school he was nice but tended to take out his anger on me when he was well angry or frustrated. Such at slapping, punching, pinching, and, stabbing (with his pencil) me. I reprimanded him and told him not to but I never told his teacher because I know how it feels to not understand something you were learning in school and to become frustrated or confused, so I feel that I could relate to his problems. Then about the start of second quarter he started acting calmer, more collected, and was able to focus better. I was really happy because he stopped trying to hurt me and he was getting his work done faster. Everything was going well until today when it seems like he relapsed back to how he used to be. I asked him if he took his medicine that morning and he said that he did so I was naturally confused. If he took his medicine then why is he acting this way. By acting this way I mean stubborn to start working and taking an excruciatingly long time on it. Then all of a sudden about half-way during the tutoring session he jumped me, literally. He jumped on top of me and grabbed a fistful of my hair and yanked. Then after a while I finally got him off and he stabbed me with a pencil. Normally I can't hold my anger down when someone hits me or something but for Bradley I was willing. But this time around I snapped. I stood up from my beanbag that I was in and poked him in the forehead. I was like, "The next time you physically harass me I'm telling the principal and your teacher, got it!" His eyes widened and he packed up his backpack and said, "I'm leaving." Then we walked towards the door of the library and he started joking about it! I'm not even going to start on how much that pissed me off. So I did what I normally do, ignore him and walk away.

I'm kinda scared about tomorrow though 'cause I mean how am I supposed to act about and around him. If you have any advice for me I'd appreciate a comment with your advice in it, thanks for reading ^_^
-Monsta

Been a while.. >.>

Wow, I haven't posted since Feb. Silly me. I just re-read what I posted last and I'm like "Wow, I was such a jerk back then!" XD I think I've changed a bit now, I'm nicer than before and I love all my friends. I feel that we're closer than ever and I hope it stays this way for a while. Anyways school's going fine and I'm now a Freshman in high school ^_^ I still write fanfics on fanfiction.com and I still love to draw, read and write. I think that anime and manga is helping me become more confident and able to express myself along with my feelings better, I know that may sound kinda stupid but hey it's how I feel and I'm allowed to vent on my blog XP.

Anyways something random I wanted to post was that last night one of the glow in the dark stars I had on my ceiling fell down onto the keyboard of my laptop while I was typing and I ended up screaming my head off and almost giving myself a heart-attack >///< I know stupid right but like the simplist stuff startles the crap outta me!! Ahhhhh, ranting feels so good! Well I guess I better get going now before my mom yells at me to get off again. See ya next post!

Monday

Wow it's Monday already X.X School was long but i had tutoring for math so thats done. Then later tonight i have a basketball game. My dad might come to lunch tomorrow but i'm not worried. I kinda feel myself drifting away from my besties (best friends) and drifting out more to other people that i dont know very well. I found out today that one of my friends, Morgan, told my other friends something that i didnt want her to tell. That kinda pissed me off. Also you know how theres always a bunch of cliques and stuff. Well for us theres the Corn Flakes (cool kids) then theres the Cool nerds (Nerds that are kinda cool) then we have the Secret Circle ( a bunch of random people together.. kinda like the cool nerds.) Then we have The Nerds (Just nerds) Then theres the Fakers (Guys who think there cool but there not) and lastly we have me and my besties we have our own kinda clique (its me, Jess, Mk, Morgan, and Leah.) Oh i forgot about the Drifters (people who drift from one clique to the next) So anyways Morgan is like.. i dunno a rich snotty kid (an only child) and she's been known to spread rumors (I've been her target before so i know it hurts) and then theres Jess (my besties) ((Shes middle-class and has divored parents and a older sister.)) Me and Jess just kinda clicked when we met ^_^ ( but lately we've been drifting apart) Next up is Mk (or McKinley) (( she is adopted with a older bro and younger bro shes also middle-class and we have a lot in common)) Lastly is Leah (shes rich with two older sisters and kinda weird.. ) Oh! I forgot about me.. Well I'm middle class i play basketball and love animals, uhhh i have an older brother and have never had a boyfriend. Thats all for the personal info for now XP Guess that's all i have to say well see ya'll either later tonight or tomorrow.

First Post

Hi! This is my first post i guess. I had idea's of making my own blog earlier but i guess either i was too chicken to do it or i just never got to it. Hate to say it but this was inspired by a Manga, Koko Ni Iru Yo!. I guess you can tell now that I like manga and anime (^_^). Anyways i usually do this by hand but dont cha think typing is more efficient. Now down to the heart to heart stuff. I guess sometimes i wish i had someone elses life. Or like was a character from and anime or manga or even that my life was it's own anime (or manga). My friends mostly know that i like to watch anime and read manga and even draw them but i only have 1 friend that likes them (it) too. Whenever i feel like i cant keep up this outer façade i vent and write fan-fic stories and draw. When both of those fail i power up the computer and blast music XD. Now the newest thing i do is blogging! I hope that i can post at least once every day. I'm pretty sure that i dont even know who my real self is.... thats kinda sad no? Right now i'm listening to Fly on the Wall. Hope you respond with advice or help me along this journey thanks!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uayQSM6cR4Q&feature=channel